To say I love writing would be wrong.
I like writing, sure, but what I like better is not writing. Taking paper and pen, or computer and keyboard, and simply not writing.
There's a certain beauty in a blank page, in the knowledge that I can create something. I can do anything with a sheet of paper, and that is precisely why I almost always do nothing. You see, the moment I put a word down, even a single letter, I feel like I'm destroying something. Whatever I write, however skilled I become, the things I write are dwarfed by what I haven't written.
Writing is not an exercise in choosing words, but rather in not choosing them. The moment I
I get cold feet a lot. The literal kind, the ones that make you wince when they brush your leg in the night, stop you slipping off to sleep, distract when you wear thin socks. That kind. I've had them for a while, I'm almost used to them. Thing is, I never used to, not before January.
I've written this before. I laid it all out over two pages, all mysterious and slow and perfect. I wrote something that followed perfectly the thoughts behind me doing something that made no sense, something stupid I've regretted on and off since. I had it all written out, but I never typed it up. I filed it at the back of my folder, behind all my Physics notes
Man has rights. Among these: Life, Liberty, and the pursuit of icecream.
It was to exercise the latter right that I left my house not too long ago.
As usual when in pursuit of icecream, I crossed Woodford Avenue. I passed the bAr, Visage, and finally Faces - that magical place widely recognised as one of the worst nightclubs in the land. Soon, I had reached my goal and, suppressing the urge to wave my arms and shout "Open Sesame!", I walked through the automatic doors into Tesco acting like a normal person.
I maintained this pretence, walking in measured strides, neither too fast nor too slow, to the 'Frozen Goods' section. There I raised